My weight loss journey began in my second year of university and this was mainly because in my first year, I was eating a lot and very unhealthily to say the least and this led to me gaining over 10 kg in a short space of time. I wanted to just get rid of the small gut I was starting to develop but that journey was an absolute JOKE. I can count on one hand how many times I went to the gym that year. I was doing the opposite of what you’re supposed to do in order to lose weight(eating a lot, drinking, eating at night, takeaways etc) and so I continued to gain more and more weight which started to affect my confidence.
Fast forward to the first term of my final year, the same habits continued until one day I just became fed up of feeling down about my weight gain and decided that I was going to lose weight by all means even if it meant I had to starve myself (this was not a healthy mindset to have!). Luckily my accommodation at the time came equipped with a gym so I’d go everyday and eat close to nothing. Suddenly it was working and I was losing the weight but what I didn’t realise was that I was also beginning to develop an unhealthy relationship with food.
Regardless of the weight loss, I was still spending most of my time in the gym doing cardio. I went from being allergic to the gym to doing over 45 mins of intense cardio everyday. I lost SO much weight. I was starving myself all in the name of calorie counting and it was horrible. People would tell me I’d lost a lot of weight and I could see it too but I felt like I could lose more. For some reason I just had a really bad fear of going back to the weight I was before.
A few months after graduating, I started working and was back to eating loads of junk again which I believe was partly due to the stress of entering a new chapter of my life. I gained all the weight I lost back. I was very upset about it and felt like all my hard work had gone down the drain. I made a decision to embark on another weight loss journey from January and once again, I was back to obsessing over calories. I set myself a weight goal and I reached it but again I was on edge in fear that I’d gain it all back. I have done some self reflection and realised I did not go about my weight loss journey the right way.
If you decide to embark on a weight loss journey, it shouldn’t be a race on how fast you can see results. Once you adopt a healthy lifestyle by exercising more regularly, eating healthier and cutting your portions down to a REASONABLE (please deep this word!) size, with time the weight loss will come about. Obsessing over eating one small biscuit and beating yourself up ain’t it. Yes, losing weight takes discipline but don’t beat yourself up if you have a day or two where you do all the things you’re not supposed to do to lose weight.
Remember it’s a journey.
I said all of this say that in every journey that we take, we must take time and not rush. Rushing might get you there quicker but it’s not always the best way to go about things. In my case, I didn’t develop a healthy diet or lifestyle. All I did was basically starve myself to lose the weight which was why it was so easy for me to go back to eating unhealthily. If I had taken the time to develop healthier eating habits, this most likely wouldn’t have been the case for me. I am still unlearning a lot things and changing the mindset I had when it came to losing weight.
If you got to the end of this, thank you so much for taking the time out to read this post and I hope I didn’t bore you.
Sending you guys all my love